my passive aggressiveness can be devastating".
yes, today like many days i just feel i´m ready to crack wide open..
god forbid.
need to keep battling my own demons. .. not many reasons left.
got nothing to rely on...This desolation is overwhelming.
Isolation is even worse. It feels absurd if not unjust.
So deeply, so deeply alone. "cellulary alone" now I get it.
I´ve kept my own reactions questioned for so long... ..retrospectively tortured by my non-reactions.
now fearing coming across with past ...
your unscrupulousness is so deliberate that makes me tremble in advance.
What´s the point of pretending needlessness?
God I wanna be true.

